The Weight Game

Ugh. I hate gaining weight but love eating junk food. That is NOT a good combination.

I have to start holding myself accountable and start (again) exercising and eating better. That means no more boxes of swiss cake rolls. HA. Seriously, today was kind of like hitting bottom for me. I am tired of feeling blah and honestly, Lauren is nearly two. It's time to take care of those last few pounds I gained during the pregnancy. My most recent excuse had been that if I have another baby soon, why work to lose the weight to gain it back? Well, having a baby may not be in the near future and I am no longer going to use that as an excuse to be lazy and eat crap.

I got stuff ready for a garage sale last week. When I was going through my maternity clothes to get things ready to sell, I actually found FOUR - yes four - shirts that I then brought upstairs so I could wear. Granted, they don't look "maternity" but the fact that I am going to wear maternity shirts because I want to have the material loose around my belly is a statement in and of itself. Before Lauren, I wore totally different clothes. Now, I can't stand any kind of shirt that clings to my belly. My closet totally reflects that. I've decided it's time.

So, while Lauren napped I pulled out Wii Fit, created a new Mii - which I made a little chunkier than my last, haha - and worked out for 25 minutes until the batteries on the Wii board died. It's a psychological boost - I felt better after doing it. I am going to try to do it every day - if I get off at 2, I'll come home and do my workout before I get Lauren. If I don't get off early, I'll force myself to do it after she goes to bed. Wii fitting with Lauren is not an option. She likes to use the board as a chair. I may try to get up earlier and walk, but we'll see about that. I just have to resolve to do this and stick to it.

I hate healthy foods - seriously. I love junk. I need to moderate things rather than going extreme. Here's an example - after my workout, I wanted a snack so I ate peanuts and chocolate chips. Normally, I would just dump a bunch in a bowl, but I actually measured out the serving size. I'm going to start doing that with my foods at home, and then just make healthier choices at work. And stop eating fast food. Well, not eat it a lot anyway.

Fortunately, Wii Fit was encouraging today. My goal is to lose 2.1 pounds so I'm at my ideal BMI. That still puts me about 5 pounds heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight, but I think if I can tone my thighs and belly I'll feel better about myself - even if my actual weight is higher than I'd like.

So, hopefully on August 16 I will happily post that I achieved my goal! Good luck to myself on eating healthier and exercising!