I haven't had much time to work on this blog lately, oops!
I still feel like I'm 18 sometimes. In fact, when people ask me how old I am, I seriously have to think about it. Often times I have to actually do the math: "2009 - 1981 = . . . 28. . . which means I'm 27?" If Troy's with me, I just ask him. I don't just freeze my age, I also do it with all my cousins. My youngest cousin just attended her junior prom, but in my head she's 10. My twin boy cousins just completed their first year at Indiana University, and I'm still surprised they can drive.
Little things every now and then make me feel grown up. When Troy and I got our townhouse, I felt really grown up to have a mortgage payment. I felt grown up having a student loan for my master's degree. Geez - I have a KID?? That one really gets me sometimes, still. Love her more than anything in the world and can't imagine life without her, but I still have my "wow" moments where it hits me that she's really MINE. Well, ours, but you know what I mean. They let me take this child home! Side note: Based on recent stories in the news, I do NOT believe that a 9-month pregnancy entitles you to being a qualified mother. She makes me feel grown up, but at the same time makes me feel like a kid again. I LOVED coloring, and now she's getting into that, so I get to do it all over again. And watching her experience new things makes me feel like a kid. Tonight, she was soo happy to see our neighbor's puppies. Then she got excited today at Capitol Market just smelling the flowers and looking at the food.
The thing today that made me feel grown up (got sidetracked there for a minute!) was working on what little landscaping we have. A few summers ago, I tried to plant flowers and make it look nice. I was shocked that these flowers kept coming back, despite my neglect. So, tonight we really worked on the landscaping. We tore out one bush that was just ugly, and picked weeds and dug up the other flowers. We planted a really pretty flowery plant - that is it's real name, I'm sure - and then re-did the mulch. We only got one side done, and tomorrow we're going to get more flowers to plant. I also got some flowers to plant in pots and put them on the concrete wall by our garage. Making the house look better made me feel grown up.
Am I the only one who has these moments, or are others also frozen in time?
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you're definitely not the only one! i feel the same exact way. i often incorrectly tell ppl my age and sometimes as much as 15 minutes will go by before i realize what i did. oh, and once i didn't even realize...aimee told me i was wrong and i actually argued with her. lol.
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